My pastor once said, “every need is not a calling”. This is so true and as women we can feel like we are the only ones able to get this or that done.

I stretched myself way too thin yesterday, because out of 5 kid’s parents, I was the only one able to drive them to and from the beach. It’s 30 minutes away so that’s 2 hours of driving to drop them off and then come back later to pick them up.

Even though I said yes, I knew I really didn’t have the time. So my rushing around to fill this need for my son caused me to blow up at him later because he wasn’t where he said they would be when I picked them up.

A simple miscommunication mistake on his part became a huge outburst on my part. I was harboring resentment of wasting my time and why no other parent could help out.

I should have been thinking what a blessing it is that we have a 7 passenger car and how I was blessing the kids to be able to go to the beach together since everyone is doing virtual school. My own selfish sinfulness got in the way.

I drowned myself in self-pity, self-sufficiency, and self-righteousness, rather than relying on God to work things out. My perspective was off and so was my heart.

Yet today as I understand my sin better, I am able to ask for forgiveness of both God and my son. I need to get better at recognizing my own limits, but also how my actions, even when unnoticed can bless others or curse them.

I am forgiven when I deserve death. I am a child of God, loved and cherished, when I deserve hell. This profound truth humbles me and lifts me up at the same time. Thank you Jesus, for teaching me, reproving me, correcting me, and training me in Your righteousness so that I may be competent and able in Your eyes!

I love watching period shows with kings, queens, and warriors. I am significant because I am the daughter of the King. I have been acting like the bratty, entitled, know-it-all princess when my calling is humility, kindness, and love toward the King’s subjects.

What idol have you been shown and are working on? What challenges has it presented?