When I was a kid, I was a latch-key kid after my parents divorced. My mom would leave me a list of things I had to do before she got home. My job was to finish the list, not question the list. It wasn’t a good idea for me to decide for myself what I interpreted the list to say. A friend of mine says that when she pulls into the parking lot of her work, if she sees her boss’s car parked, she immediately sits up straighter in her car even though he is not actually around. It is her instinct to do so. We should feel the same way with God. He is ALWAYS watching but we never consider the simple fact that he is there.
How oddly un-odd it is that we don’t consider God’s omniscience more. He is EVERYWHERE and yet we excuse our behavior as something out of our control such as PMS or in my case gluten or whatever other issue we have that gives us the weak ability to excuse our actions and words or more plainly our poor behavior towards others. Jesus asked us to love one another as he has loved us. I do a terrible job. He asked you, he asked me! He asked us to do everything as if we were doing it to Him and for Him personally. Yikes, that is not the case in my every day life. Today I resolve to consider God’s presence at every moment, in every conversation, in every thought, in every simple interaction, with every usually mindless facial expression to others. Today I will start my journey towards loving others and completing tasks with the weight of God’s omniscience!
You are all knowing. You know the good. You know the bad. You are all knowing. You even know the decisions you are going to make before you make them. My question lies in the idea that all you know and all you are is good. How then did evil get into the world if you are not evil? If you created everything, then why did you create evil? Isn’t it against your nature? I confess that I am so small brained compared to you. You know everything. But this is where I get really messed up. I hope some day soon I will be able to understand this question. I do not know everything, you do. So you can answer that question some day. I am sorry for this twisted thought. I know Satan uses it in my mind. Forgive my doubt. I know you are true. I know you are here. I can feel your prescience and know your works in my life and others. I know based on the prophets and the testimony of Jesus by the apostles. I know all is true. I see dimly through the glass and want so badly to bring it all into focus. The type-A personality that you have given me wants the hardest questions answered now. I long for that day when your perfect work in me will be completed in you.
O LORD, you have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O LORD, you know it altogether. – Psalm 139: 1-4
Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments and how inscrutable his ways! “For who has known the mind of the Lord, or who has been his counselor?” – Romans 11:33-34
Grace be with all who love our Lord Jesus Christ with love incorruptible. (Eph. 6:24)
Maranatha! (Come, Lord Jesus!)
~ Jen O’Sullivan