In the scholarly circles of men there is a buzz of speculation that tends to occur. Why and how things work that seemingly have no answer. Natural conundrums without explanation or reason. But when we get into scholarly debate and speculation on God, the sky seems to be the limit. Or is the sky the limit? Because when I begin to really contemplate God, my mind starts to hurt because it is somewhere out in orbit where I cannot seem to breathe.

So, I need to take a step back. To speculate on any answer that is not answered in the Bible is wrong. Dead wrong. God has revealed to us all he wanted to reveal to us. Of course the Bible cannot contain the depth and breadth of who he is or what his plan is. But here is where I get excited…

You know when you watch a movie, but not just any movie, but a REALLY good one? Those are the ones that when you get up from your seat you say to yourself and those around you, even perfect strangers, “WOW! I didn’t see THAT coming!” Somehow I think when I die, I will say that over and over again in wonder, joy, and awe. Wow, I never realized that is why… or Wow, I would have never thought THAT is who you were talking about… and on and on.

There are mysteries still that we will not know or understand until we are on the other side of eternity. What a glorious day to see my Savior’s face, and how fun it will be to look back on history with a crystal clear picture of God’s perfect and wondrous plan.

Father, I am a mess. You are so good and incredible. You are everything and I am nothing. I am here at your feet humbly asking for forgiveness. I am a mess. A literal mess. You know I very much dislike this feeling. I feel fully out of control. I know you are sovereign. You are in control of every single molecule. You are my rock. My salvation. My strength. My hope. I am pitiful and poor. I am void. Only through you do I find any sense of being and validity. Without you I am fully and completely nothing. My flesh wants so badly to correct me on that point. My flesh wants so badly to be right. But it is wrong. I am nothing. My flesh is nothing. My flesh is death. Through you I find life. Through your Spirit I find peace. Holy Spirit I cry out to you for more of you. Please give me more of you. Almighty Father bless me with more faith this year. Help me to obey and become a good child and a good servant. I desire to hear well done from you. Please give me boldness. Give me love. Give me compassion. More of your Holy Spirit to guide my heart. I need more of you. Please I beg you for more faith and more of your Spirit. Those two things I ask this year. I desire to know you more. I desire to desire you more. To grow in my Sanctification. To grow in the knowledge of you! Your divine power has granted to me all the things that pertain to life and godliness through the knowledge of You who called me to your own glory and excellence! Help me to uphold those standards of excellence for your glory. Thank you for calling me. Thank you for granting me understanding and wisdom. Thank you for your peace and your grace. I boldly step out with confidence only because you are with me.