Don’t Question the “To-Do” List from God

When I was a kid, I was a latch-key kid after my parents divorced. My mom would leave me a list of things I had to do before she got home. My job was to finish the list, not question the list. It wasn’t a good idea for me to decide for myself what I interpreted the list to say. A friend of mine says that when she pulls into the parking lot of her work, if she sees her boss’s car parked, she immediately sits up straighter in her car even though he is not actually around. It is her instinct to do so. We should feel the same way with God. He is ALWAYS watching but we never consider the simple fact that he is there.

How oddly un-odd it is that we don’t consider God’s omniscience more. He is EVERYWHERE and yet we excuse our behavior as something out of our control such as PMS or in my case gluten or whatever other issue we have that gives us the weak ability to excuse our actions and words or more plainly our poor behavior towards others. Jesus asked us to love one another as he has loved us. I do a terrible job. He asked you, he asked me! He asked us to do everything as if we were doing it to Him and for Him personally. Yikes, that is not the case in my every day life. Today I resolve to consider God’s presence at every moment, in every conversation, in every thought, in every simple interaction, with every usually mindless facial expression to others. Today I will start my journey towards loving others and completing tasks with the weight of God’s omniscience!

God’s perfection in randomness

When you look around you see movement. Trees, water, people. There is organic movement happening all around us. I have a friend that I get into discussions about God with all the time. He firmly believes that God set everything in motion and then left. When I was in art school we had a project to design something using similar objects like leaves or bubbles and make it appear random. It was the most difficult thing to do. Needless to say, everyone failed. We are wired to create patterns. It is extremely hard to create something that looks random. It takes a great deal of artistry to do what God does. The wind blows and it is a perfect symphony of precision by God’s finger. Look at a tree and you will see this beautiful randomness to the leaves.

Think about this for a moment. Do you believe God is sovereign? We must define that term in order to agree or disagree. The idea behind God being sovereign is that He is in control over everything. He possesses the ultimate power and is completely outside our understanding of the magnitude of that power. RC Sproul put the concept out wonderfully when he said (paraphrased here) if there is even just one rogue molecule running around doing what it wants, then God is not sovereign. Basically if God is not sovereign, then God is not God. Make sense? It makes me look at the world in a whole new way. In a way I truly cannot fathom because it is outside my realm of understanding. But isn’t that the beauty of God? We cannot bottle him up. We can only base our existence off of what He revealed to us. Oh the day when I will see clearly rather than dimly. When I know in full rather than in part. When the kingdom of the world becomes the Kingdom of our Lord! Maranatha!


Lord of love, Lord of life and everything in it. You are pure and perfect in every way. Love is all of you. You can do nothing outside of your loving kindness. Your discipline stems directly from your love. Your judgement stems directly from your love. Your trials and tests stem directly from your love. Your love: what a perfect picture of beauty and synergy.

You teach us through our own love for our children. How in love I may cause pain or in love I may make my child angry but it is all for a purpose. For an outcome not seeable at that moment by the child. Your love at times causes me pain. Your love at times frustrates me. But I know it is perfect and that you act out of the knowledge of the end and not the means.


God is full of faith. Not faith in us but faith that is from him. He keeps his promises. He is steadfast. Full of beautiful, sustaining faith. I need to reciprocate that faith. His faith is based on his promises and my faith is based on my believing his promises and trusting that he will keep his promises. Thank you LORD, for your faithfulness and please I ask for more faith.

Attributes and Love

Love! Your love is perfect and goes hand in hand with all your other attributes. You are love. Love defines your judgement. Love upholds your power. Love encompasses your wisdom. Love invades your immutability. Love penetrates your patience. Love makes perfect your holiness. Love infiltrates your sovereignty. Love covers all that you are just as each attribute covers and works in and through and around all of your other attributes. You are incredible and faithful and true and LOVE intertwines them all.

Lesson Learned… I Hope

Today my Dad taught me a lesson. One that he has taught me over and over again my whole life but for some reason today was a little different. We set out to go to dinner tonight with my husband and my son. We were leaving a little late and I had a schedule to keep, plans that my Type-A insidiousness would not want hindered. My husband needed to go to the bank before we went to dinner, and being the good dad that he is he let Jacob, our son dictate the restaurant. BJs it was. But my husband turned right, when BJs and the bank was left. I quickly corrected him and said he needed to go left. He said politely back that he wanted to go to the regular bank. But, here I was, in my own mind rightly correct, and on my own self-serving agenda. So, in true “Jenny” fashion (only my husband calls me Jenny so don’t get any ideas, because remember, I am Type-A) I snapped back that the bank was FULLY in the opposite direction and that there was a perfectly good ATM machine right next to the restaurant. And really, we were just going to use the ATM machine at the actual bank too so what is the difference? He shook his head, kept his cool, and instantly took the next U-turn he could and therefor I got my way. I instantly regretted the whole thing and wanted to stuff back all my disrespectful words. But I couldn’t. I messed up. I know my husband and he usually has good reason for why he does what he does and he definitely is not a time-waster or someone who allows inefficiency. I should have known better. Also, if you back up to every other time I insisted on my way and he caved over the past 10 years I was consistently wrong and he was consistently right. I don’t even mean by a percentage. I mean 100% he was right every time even though I thought, at the time I was 100% right.

God teaches me over and over again to SUBMIT to my husband. Even on the small decisions. But again, I sat in the car making things worse by apologizing and begging him to turn around and go to the actual bank. He did not. He continued in the direction I asked him to go. So, here is God’s (my Dad’s) lesson. We get to the ATM and there it is. A big red OUT OF ORDER sign. OF COURSE!! Thank you Jesus! I am WRONG once again and my husband is RIGHT. I should have just kept my mouth shut and trusted in my husband’s ability to lead our family. The reason today was a little different was not in the lesson itself, but in the surrounding circumstances. I kept going even after I was clearly hit over the head yet again with a lesson. Telling him this and that and chirping in his ear becoming that drip, drip, drip that every woman claims they are not but secretly hopes they are not but wonders if they are. What is wrong with me! I do the things I hate and the things I want to do I do not do (paraphrased from Paul’s writings). I was tried back-to-back-to-back tonight with my lack of self control, my lack of being able to keep my mouth shut, and ultimately my lack of humility. I considered a muzzle but in reality I needed to repent. Not only to God for breaking several of his laws but to my husband. I reaped some pretty hefty consequences tonight which I fear came in the form of blessings withheld which makes me sorrowful to no end. Only by the grace of God and the Holy Spirit can I be made perfect in this. Yet I still long for the day when the pain and frustration we go through on this earth will be but a small fragment of a distant, barely remembered memory like mentioned in our DBR today in Isaiah 65:17 “For behold, I create new heavens and a new earth, and the former things shall not be remembered or come into mind.”

Thank you, Dad that I am a work in progress and one of your attributes is patience, especially with a control freak Type-A like me. I know there is a perfect soul somewhere inside this massively corrupt body and I can’t wait to meet her some day soon!

~ Jen (

Attributes of God: He is Love

God Is Love

Your love is so crushing when I think deeply about it. Who would do what You did? You did not have to solve our problem. We were the ones who disobeyed You! But You came! You came and lived a perfect life among us. There was no fault in You at all. I could only imagine being Mary when you were a child; a confusingly perfect child. Your solution is humanly unthinkable. You did no wrong and yet You took the ultimate punishment. You died a horrendous humiliating death on a stake; fully beaten, bloody, and naked. You were innocent and yet You kept silent because You had a plan. A plan that no one would ever, ever conceive. But You did. Because You are love. That kind of love is crushing. It crushes my heart. It overwhelms me. You are not just loving, You are the epitome of love. YOU ARE LOVE!

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” (John 3:16, ESV)

God Is Love

Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us.

By this we know that we abide in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit. And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in him, and he in God. So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him. By this is love perfected with us, so that we may have confidence for the day of judgment, because as he is so also are we in this world. There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. We love because he first loved us. If anyone says, “I love God,” and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen cannot love God whom he has not seen. And this commandment we have from him: whoever loves God must also love his brother. (1 John 4:7-21, ESV)


Attributes of God: He is Omnipotent

God Is Omnipotent (He has infinite and unlimited power.)

How precious is your power. How it is needed every second of every day it is! I am weak but you are all powerful. I ache and have pain yet you have power. I long for the day when I get to see you and your power. For now I am thankful for your power thorough my life. Through your Holy Spirit I am able to gain access to your power. Please Lord give me your power; even just a grain of sand worth. I cannot seem to make it through this day without you. I fumble even when I am obedient. I am saddened by my lack of power. Please give me a tiny piece of you to get me through today.

Summon your power, O God, the power, O God, by which you have worked for us. (Psalm 68:28, ESV)

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. (2 Corinthians 12:9, ESV)

Wednesday Worship ~ Attributes of God ~ God is Soverign

You made me! You made us! You made everything! Your work and creation is far greater than what we could ever hope to make or create. Your intricate creation is perfect and you can do what you want with us when you want. You have every right to make people who are full of wrath in order to show your glory. You have every right to remove your light from people and in them begets great darkness. You have every right to choose whom you will choose and whom you will not choose. You have every right to restrain the full force of evil. You have every right to remove your Spirit and allow Hell on Earth. Come Lord Jesus Come! When is enough enough for you. You are immeasurably patient. Help me to have patience like yours. I long for your Day to come! But you know the perfect time for everything. Your plans are good and perfect.

The LORD has established his throne in the heavens, and his kingdom rules over all. – Psalm 103:19

The LORD of hosts has sworn, “As I have planned, so it shall be, and as I have purposed, so it shall stand.” – Isaiah 14:24

Wednesday Worship ~ Attributes of God ~ Faithful

Your steadfast love is so odd to me. It is so counter intuitive. Everyone around me is so selfish and self serving yet You, who needs no man love us way more than we even love ourselves. Your mercies never end. Your love and mercy are new every morning. What does that mean, they are new every morning? You are the creator of creativity. Is it new in the way you show me your love? I think it means that you love me fresh. Your mercies are clean every morning. You give me a blank slate. Thank you!!!!!

The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. – Lamentations 3:22-23

~ Jen O’Sullivan