I am tired. Worn down by my own flesh. How do I maintain this effort? How do I reconcile my lowly pathetic life with my desire to be a highly useful and worthy ambassador for God in a world full of darts and flames. I desire in my heart reformation. My flesh fights every second of the way. There needs to be change. There needs to be repentance. There needs to be faith. There needs to be whole hearted devotion to the Almighty Creator. Coram Deo. Before the face of God. In the presence of God. For the glory of God. Always. Always. Always.
1 John 1:2 ESV
the life was made manifest, and we have seen it, and testify to it and proclaim to you the eternal life, which was with the Father and was made manifest to us-
This verse is on the heals of verse 1 stating “the word of life”, the life John is talking about is Jesus. Reference back to John 1:1 ESV “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.”
When Jesus spoke, the people never heard anything like what he was saying. As CS Lewis says Jesus was either a lunatic, a liar, or Lord. The claims Jesus made were HUGE. He claimed not to be a good teacher, He claimed to be God! John testifies as a reputable reporter that Jesus IS eternal life. John was not some crazy man on the street corner holding a sign that says “The end is near!” He was well respected. Remember, John saw Jesus glorified on the Mount of Transfiguration. He was an eyewitness.
Jesus revealed to John that He was God. John not only testifies the reality and truth of this fact but also he proclaims it. The term proclaim can also be translated as to show. He did not just tell of Jesus, but he showed people a life transformed by Jesus. Actions always speak louder then words. Who we are and how we live will make a greater impact.
Be a true and clear witness to the gospel of Jesus through your words and your actions.
I see myself girded up to live out a life worthy of being called an ambassador of Christ at 8:00am and then by 8:01am I somehow mess it up. It is a constant struggle to keep my mind focused on actions AND words. To align my actions with my words is one of the hardest things to do.
There is a story of an Indian Chief and a little boy sitting high on a cliff overlooking a ravine with a river down below. The little boy wanted to learn how to gain more wisdom. So the chief gave him a handful of tiny feathers and said to throw them up into the air over a cliff. The boy did so and watched as the wind lifted them up into the sky, some floated all the way across the ravine to the other side, some down into the river, some floated back over their head and onto the land, while others lifted far up and out of sight. The chief said to the boy, “Now go and retrieve every single feather and bring it back.” The boy laughed because he knew that was impossible. So it is with our words. Once we let them go, we can never get them back.
Lord, help me to be a great ambassador for you. Help me to continually check my actions and my words that they line up with bringing you more glory. Help me to testify and proclaim that you are who you say you are. Help me to be a good student and not only learn your lessons but apply them every moment of every day until you call me home in glory!
You have been more than patient with my daftness. You deserve my praise and adoration. You deserve my everything yet I sit here day after day dealing with silly worldly issues. NOTHING. These issues are nothing! Nothing compared to my commission. Nothing compared to my stewardship. I am an ambassador for you, Christ and here I sit not doing my job. Forgive me for getting caught up in this world and all the drama that comes with it. Father, today I will start again. Today I resolve to see this new day and simply start.