As I sit here in tears, on my 11th salvation anniversary, at 4am in the morning, I am reminded of the beauty of the mercy and grace that was lavished on me 11 years ago for no reason at all other than God chose me.

At 3am, I was woken up by my husband who was quietly sobbing next to me because of the immense pain he is in. Three discs in his back are bulging from late stage diabetes and the pain is unbearable at times. I used to say I can count how many times I have seen him cry on one hand, but now it seems to be a daily occurrence. This is a difficult time for someone who never shows emotion.

We’ve been together since we were 18. If you have read my testimony you will know that I thought I was saved during those years. We were marred when we were 30. I still married him even though I though I was saved. I now understand why I did not have the strength to let go of my high school love.

People used to tell me how hard it would be since we were “unequally yolked”. What they did not understand, and what I now understand, is that we were equally yolked at the time. Our marriage was really easy in the beginning. It was not until 2013 that things drastically changed. Becoming an actual Christian, fully saved, filled, and sealed by the Holy Spirit changed everything.

Now, over 20 years of marriage later, he is still not saved and is as stubborn as ever. Tonight I told him to ask God to help him with his pain. I told him I have been praying for him too. What Tim doesn’t know is that I don’t pray that God would heal him. I pray that God would save him. His soul is of far more value than his decaying body.

If you read this, would you please pray for Tim O’Sullivan. Not for his body, but for his soul? Pray that God would grant Tim the same wonderful mercy and grace He gave to me on May 19, 2013. Pray that the Holy Spirit would reveal to him that he is a sinner, that he needs forgiveness, and he needs to be holy in front of a Holy God that he may be meeting sooner than later.

Thank you my friend! God is good, even through the valley.